....I feel kinda bad because I have a wandering (?) mind... it's like I am all excitiment about something and then I find a rock on the road and instead of jumping over it I look at the sides and get excited with a new idea or maybe I don't find a rock but I get bored of the project-idea-activity so I find a new excitiment one and I left the previous one....and so on... that's how I been like with everything in my life since I have memory. (for instance, artistic gymnastics, ballet, ballet with other teacher, acting classes, ballet again, guitar lessons, graphic design and English (those last 3 I found out I learned better on my own so it doesn't count really)
Some people have told me it's a good thing because I can be very creative, which I feel it's true... but I can't have constancy and it's a competitive world and on the other hand some people have told me I have to try to change but I don't agree with that either because it's the way I am.. and besides I tried and it didn't work :p.
Anyway, I'm getting confused right now so... I'm just going just to see what I have and what I can do about it. Although I already feel "better", I mean... taking the pictures and typing about how I feel made kinda a positive change on my mind and now I want to study. (Turn out blogging is a great therapy)
· On this post I said I wanted to knit some gloves for me... and the "rock" was that I didn't find the perfect wool for the project I had on mind, I found some but they didn't look good when knitted on the pattern I wanted and worse with the little beads I wanted to knit with and it kinda push me back on the idea BUT then I found these punk rock corset gloves which I fell in love with, but it was like October and it was reaaally hot somedays... and kinda freshy but not to wear this, but I was all day thinking about them and I had the materials so I gave it a try:
Why should I kick myself for this project?... because I only made one glove -.-
Then on the same post I said I wanted to knit my friend Valeria some legwarmers.... but happened the same, it was hottt, so.. when in December I went to visit her I gave her my heart ;) and a one of the Christmas tree I made and she was all happy and cheerful.
· Moving on I said somewhere in this messy and empty blog I wanted to crochet a bag for my mom, well, I DID but didn't turn out well because of the size. The body should be wider or less wider so I can join 2, because when I finished it, it was too narrow and my mom wanted it to be a bit wider... so.. I started unraveling the base but I didn't want to unravel the body yet, cos.. it took me a while to crochet because of the yarn and the pattern, but I have to.. :(
· And finally what I was talking about in the previous post wich I still have to translate into English.. so with this one into Spanish, anyways I said I was making rag rugs, for some reason (no tv and no computer :p) while being in my hometown I finished a whole rug in 2 days... the idea come out cos my mom had this "totora" or "fabric yarn" and was knitting a rug with it but she didn't like it much because of the holes the large sized needles would leave so I told her I saw a rug made of crochet so I gave it a try and she really liked it... so she bought more yarn for me the other day and I finished a pretty red-green-white rag rug for Christmas.. and another one in grey and blue that I brought here but it's kinda dirty so I didn't take pics of it.
Anyway... I found here a pretty blue totora and another in white and blue stripes.. perfect matching for my apartment so...I made a rug out of them, final weight around 2 and half kilos.. about 5 pounds.
Problem: Because of the waves if someone is not looking while walking, that person could trip and fall.
Reason: the white and blue striped totora is wider than the blue one and it's also made of a different material so it gets wavy.
Solution: Unravel it and cut in halves the striped one and make it all over again.
Anyway... *sigh, I feel like I did nothing but I know it's not that way at the same time, it's just hard to trip and try to do it again knowing that you may trip again, but it is the way life is, like my brother said: "We hate working in vain but we have to learn how to stand up over that".
I do feel better and I feel something else I can't explain right now, so I'm just going to take a break on the deep thinking for a little while and maybe then show what I did finish and I'm proud of, but.. later..(...)and I want to kick my procrastinating butt(...) (!) and this is not procrastination, my camera is out of battery and I should go to study a little more. Catch you later blog.